Just letting ya'll know I'm leaving at 2am this morning to go to El Salvador for eleven days. My grandpa is approaching the end of this life and my dad, brother and I are going to be with the family there. Prayers for a smooth, uncomplicated flight, as well as a peaceful + pain-free death would be so appreciated.
I have the February video uploading on Vimeo and I will post that as soon as I get home. It's short but it may just be my absolute favorite ever for reasons you'll understand when you see.
My new design has taken some new directions so it might be awhile longer until I unveil them.
To everyone I'm working on with design, I have great news! Basketball is over. So I have double as much time now. When I get home I hope to get cranking again. I've missed working for more then a bit here and there. I actually just finished a design last week and I can't wait to show it to you all!
Until later, Natalia
I'm proud of myself for how far I've gotten. I mean, it's the middle of February and I'm just now beginning to get the winter blues. Basketball is my saving grace in the winter, without it I become a hermit and by January 5th I'm hit hard in the face with an uncurable sickness of winter. I get so sick of winter. But, this year it has held off until February 12th.
All I want is summer, I don't care if the humidity makes the summer almost as unbearable as the winter. I need sunshine, shorts, swimming, green, light, sunshine, grass, blue skies, sunshine! Light. I never realised how much I missed it. This winter has been wonderful because there's been so much snow, so it keeps everything looking bright and cheerful instead of dingy, grey and muddy. But blue skies? Sunshine? I need it.
I can feel myself start acting out. I start saying things I regret. I become negative. A little bit cynical. I start wishing people away. Sleep, let's just sleep the winter away. Alone, I want to be alone, in denial of the frozen tundra that surrounds my world. I'm swearing to myself that no matter how hot and humid and miserable it is outside this summer, I will go outside. I will get tan. I will wear shorts. I will appreciate the blasted sun and the humidity that makes my hair become afro-like.
Maybe I could be the sunshine in my own life. Stop with the all black ensembles I've been wearing, recently. Maybe I could listen to happy-go-lucky music like summer country tunes. Maybe I could, maybe I won't. I really don't know anymore. So I'll just keep trudging along. One step in front of the other. That's kinda how my life is right now. I'm tired of holding out for the next season of the year, or of my life. I don't want to just wish my life away, but this winter is getting unbearable at a very rapid rate.
Oh and that last picture? The sun (THE SUN!) was setting and the light played into my bedroom which it never does and so I had to document it. It was one of those "and at last I see the light" moments. It was glorious.
p.s. this is not my new design. it's just to hold me over until the real one is finished.
I'm not dead, just not here right now. I feel like I was holding out for the new year to come around to feel put together with my blog again, and then my birthday, and now the end of basketball season. On the two days I work on my computer it's on client work. Because not only is time scarce so is inspiration. As much as I love basketball I'm ready for a slower paced schedule, scheduled at my own pace and not the schools. I've been art journalling recently, doodling more often, calendar journalling (it's the only way I manage to stay on top of it), and even dabbling back into pencil sketches and photography. I'm so excited. And while I'm not creating something everyday I feel more productive in my creative world. It's a happy feeling. So anyways, here's a little sneak peek of a photography shoot my little sister and I did this afternoon. I'm going to split it into three parts, because they each have a different feel to them. I hope twenty fourteen has been treating you well. x's and o's and all that shtuff.
p.s. my new blog design will hopefully be up soon. i cannot wait!
We welcomed the first week of 2014 huddled inside, sipping tea, with a blizzard roaring outside. Sunday everything got cancelled, the roads were bad, and the forecast for the next day was a -40 windchill. We relished in the relaxation time. I was hit with the idea for a short film. A brief idea of what a snow day looks like for me here. Lots of tea, pinterest, Sherlock books to hold me over, sleeping in, and writing out to do lists for the week ahead.
I had this idea last fall, and I'm hoping to be consistent with it. This year I really want to push myself in the arts and challenge myself to not get stuck in a rut. I want to keep learning and growing as a designer, recapture my love of photography, teach myself drawing, and doodling and handwriting with actual paper and pen like I did as a kid, and branch out with videography more.
So I'm challenging myself to create, and put together one video a month.
David Louis says: Never ask for approval in your work. Life is your own. Inspiration is your own. You create alone and the results are your own-- and that's good enough.
I'm not asking your approval, I'm doing this for me. I want to push myself. Get out my comfort zone. Be bold. Be confident in my work while still knowing I have so much room to improve. But how am I supposed to improve if I don't practice? So here's to new years, new chances, new pathes and new challenges!
p.s. the link in the video is for my new design website. it's still in the works so it's a little messy. but feel free to see the progress.
"One day she finally grasped that unexpected things were always going to happen in life. And with that she realised the only control she had was how she chose to handle them. So she made the decision to survive using courage, humor, and grace. She was the Queen of her own life and the choice was hers."
winter is here and it still seems crazy that twenty thirteen is almost gone. i'm slowly writing goals for the new year, plans and ideas for this space, and my design work. i'm going back and forth whether to wait until every itty bitty detail is ready to relaunch my design site, or to slowly start incorporating the new details as i finish them.
as i was going over last year's list i realized i didn't accomplish a lot of what i had hoped to. i changed, my interests changed, and i took new paths. i was going to travel over six months of the year, was not planning on playing basketball, and definitely had no idea about designing blogs for a job. instead i only took one of the planned big trips, signed up for basketball again and started designing blogs.
even in the little day to day things my plans don't always go as succeeded. in fact they rarely go as planned. and for me-- a list-maker, and an organized perfectionist-- it can mess up my rhythm and i spend the rest of the day lost, exasperated, and discouraged. so maybe this year my biggest goal will be to relax, breathe, chill out and choose to handle them with courage, humor and grace. it's my choice.